
I feel a bit guilty for not sharing much of what I’m making here on the blog for a while now, but let’s see if I can avoid sinking into an apologetic tone today. The thing is, sometimes I find it difficult not to just keep everything to myself. It’s like I have to wait until I fall into a more solid state of mind when working out vague ideas that are still forming and changing and reforming before I reach a point where the ideas and objects feel worked out enough to share. Otherwise, I risk losing interest and wanting to completely abandon the work right after. If you can forgive the lame metaphor, it’s like there’s a germination period during which I have to be especially careful or what I’m growing withers up. I’m fickle I guess… fickle and moody and I have fragile, slowly evolving ideas.
I feel good about what I’m making now, but even after several months, it’s all a bit less than solid. So I’m mostly keeping it to myself and the few visitors who happen to stop by in the hope that I can work out something more realized and satisfying. Man, I kinda feel self-conscious talking about this. Am I the only one it happens to? Have you ever just lost interest in something you were doing as soon as you shared it with others?
Well anyway, above is a tiny peek into my studio right now. I know it’s not very telling–sorry. But it’s something, right?
Slightly Uneasily,
-Steph